Who I am

 Let me introduce myself .....Monica Lee Damien Smith Prentiss                  

• I am ME
• I Love this Earth and Nature
• I am thankful for cocktail hour
• I believe in recycling
• I don't own any clothes that are "dry clean only"
• I believe in treating people fairly and equally
• I do not see colors or hear accents 
• My best friend is a Man
• I wish I lived during the roaring 20's 
• I say what is on my mind
• I swear like a sailor 
• Mean people suck
• I cry
• I believe in our constitution taking into consideration it was written in 1776 
• I wish smoking wasn't bad for you and didn't stink

• People leave
• I believe if ANY people want to get married in a church or by a justice of the peace, it does not matter what sex combination you areit doesn't affect me
• I believe in the separation of church and state
• I think I can fix everyone and everything
• Some things scare the Hell out of me
• 3/4 of the things I own are used
• I love sour patch kids and Swedish Fish
• Life is too short to be cleaning all the time
• I can be taken advantage of
• I am not sure I believe in God anymore
• I am an awesome, fun Mother, friend and wife
• Don't tell me what I can and can not do with my body. 
• I LOVE hard
• I take risks
• I am hippie'ish and like to wear make-up and have pretty painted finger and toe nails

             

• I am uninhibited
• SEX is a three letter word
• I wish people would broaden their horizons
• I can count on my hands the people who I trust and would never hurt me.
• I wish I lived in a cabin in the woods
• Pets <3
• I wish I could be barefoot all the time
• Life is hard sometimes
• I only own 3 pairs of shoes  
• I would have went down with the Titanic in the steerage class
• I never spend money on myself
• Sometimes I feel like a failure
• I wish I was close to the ocean
• I wish my body looked like it did pre-children
• I hate murderers, child molesters and drunk drivers
• I enjoy making other people Happy                  
• I have LOTS of regrets
• I am NOT the Monica I was 11 months ago

Born to Run

Originally this blogs name was titled Runnin' down a Dream.  After finding out of Clarence Clemons passing tonight I find it more fitting to have it called Born to Run.

I am back to my C25K endeavor.  I have started this a few times; first 2 times I ended up getting horrible shin splints and stopped.  This is the last time I will do this. For the past month, I have been on the no excuses plan. And when I say no excuse, there are none. 

Just this week alone I have run in the pouring rain, thunder and lightning, and 85% humidity. No excuses. Sometimes my legs are burning so much I need to walk for awhile. I don’t go very fast, a gazelle I am not. Maybe I will get there someday.

Ridgeland on my run in the rain.
It was actually lightening so hard I hid out in the banks doorway.

The trick I can tell you is to stay with it until it becomes a need, a desire, an addiction, the fire in your belly.  

Endorphins are known to induce euphoria.  Did you know a good run releases as many endorphins as a good old wham, bam roll in the hay orgasm or the high experienced by heroin or cocaine? The only difference is to get a “runners high” it usually takes about an hour at a time.  Good old fashioned orgasms don’t have to be that much of a time investment.  And if you’re not having sex you don’t need to become a drug addict.  Invest in a good pair of shoes.  ;-)

Ridgeland down town, not too busy of a night for Friday. 

 I have insomnia, I can never fall asleep, one of the reasons I go at night.  Midnight is my time of choice. 

My favorite nights are when there is a breeze against my face.  Running in the rain, is also one of the best. You get very wet, but it is so worth it!  I run at night, alone in the dark, all the thoughts in my brain, trying to get sorted through. My music blaring and not Simon and Garfunkel type music.  LOUD, music the louder the better. I listen to the same songs every night, I can gauge if I am getting faster, or am going slower based on where I am when the song is playing. And I NEVER run without Avril.

Usually I am back around 1, sometimes later depending on how many flights of stairs I stop and do.  Eat my protein, jump in the shower, play on Face book while I ice my knee if it needs it, take a couple Advil and usually am in bed just before Sam’s alarm goes off at 3. I am sore, my legs are burning, but I sleep.  Finally I sleep.

If a year ago someone told me, I would be running 5 out of 7 nights a week in the middle of the night I would have told them they were crazy!

But we all know everything changes, everyone changes.  I am not who I was a year ago.

Looks like rain is in the forecast tonight……..

   

How do you know?

What a fitting day to start blogging May 21, 2011.  The end of the world is coming, some crazy radio religion is saying at 6pm today.  Here it is 6:18 and here I still am.
Isn't the truth the end of the world is coming everyday?  We have no idea, how long humanity will be here, how long our oceans will last, our water supplies our food supply?  Hell, we have no idea when we ourselves will be gone.  You never know.  We really know nothing.

Believers, Believe, Seekers Seek.  But in the end, do you know anything for sure?

The only thing I know for sure right now is, the sun is shining, my children are bantering in the living room and Sam is driving home from work.  And I should be starting dinner, but instead I am writing a blog, that I have no idea if it will even ever be read.  And even those things could change in a blink of an eye.

There are so many things we don't know.  Most recently, we had no idea that our government for months, almost a year knew where Bin Laden was, watching him, planning an attack.  All of us, just going about our lives until suddenly on a Sunday night, regular broadcasting was interrupted on our TV's, or maybe you were on Facebook and saw a post, or were working and heard on the radio, received a text, and for some didn't know anything happened until the morning because they were already sleeping.


 Osama Bin Laden was dead.


My point is, really we know nothing.  Life is day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute.  Do we really have any control?

How do you make choices, when you have no idea what the future will bring, or if there is a future at all.  And when you make choices, you have no idea if it the right path, beautifully laid out cobblestone, or a disaster of potholes and roots to trip and stumble over.

It is like driving in thick fog, you can't see what is ahead of you.


We just don't know.